Meditation is a practice that, just like my asana practice, has changed, deepened, and come and gone throughout the years. At times, especially when my schedule is full, it can be one of the first things taken out of my daily routine.
And that’s too bad. Because my meditation practice is healing, calming, and continues to realign me with my purpose and my Self.
I used to think, “I’ll just be still for a minute,” or “pause” for 30 seconds. That’s great, but a meditation practice is different…
Sometimes I suffer from anxiety. Before I had the tool of meditation, it was overwhelming. I considered going on medication. Meditation didn’t necessarily cure me of anxiety. It did, however, give me the ability to notice my thoughts.
I started to observe the tapes running through my head. I’d watch the fear of the future, fear of the unknown, I screwed up, and I’m not good enough tapes. These limiting beliefs continued to play over and over in my mind.
The awareness of my thoughts allowed me to realize I don’t need to let them rule my life. In fact, I realized that I actually get to choose them… Whoa! Holy bananas… I’m responsible for myself and my own happiness?!?! That’s so exciting!!! …And also terrifying.
And I CHOOSE to be excited and consciously CHOOSE a positive thought moment to moment. Anxiety and fear continue to come up every day, but I get to CHOOSE their role in my life.
Like Jim Carrey says, “You will only ever have 2 options in life, love or rear. Choose love, and never let fear turn you against your playful heart.”
Like a story that never ends, I choose each day to say, “Yes!” to meditation, love, and a playful heart.